I'm Fine

In average, a person tells 4 lies a day, or 1460 a year a total of 88,000 by the age of 60.

And the most common lie: "I'm fine."

I was actually randomly reading some blogs, and I found that. The first thought which came across my mind was, "Yeah, that's so true!". ( I dunno the statistics is true to which extent, you may go google it if you want to double confirm. )

Frankly speaking, how many of us have never said that line with a smile when somebody asks us how are we doing, even after a horrendous day? We do not like to be lied, but we tend to lie about our feelings. That's how ironic life can be at times.

After so many years, well, 18 years to be exact, I guess it's one of my habits to say so as well. Family and close friends might be able to differentiate which is true and which is not, but it isn't very difficult to pretend that I'm okay sometimes. Nobody knows what does "I'm fine" really means on a given day, and the only exceptional one would be myself.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to encourage you to hide your feelings. Because on second thought, I think it's bad to practice this. Those who bother to ask how are we doing are the ones who love us. When we fake a smile and pretend to be happy, we're actually pushing these people away. And in the end, we're left with nobody, but ourselves.

I know, actions speak louder than words. I dunno whether I can change this habit of mine or not, but I'm willing to give it a try. If you're facing the same situation as I do, let's do this together. It's the end of Year 2009, and we're welcoming Year 2010. And this time, perhaps with a brand new us. Do you not agree? ;P

Again

Why everything repeats again and again? I don't want it, I really don't.

Sometimes, we should not explain. Because at a certain point of time, it's simply pointless. People who understand you well enough wouldn't have questioned you at the very first place. And if they don't believe in you anymore, explaining is a plain stupid act too.

I've had enough. I only want one night, one night which I can fall asleep soundly without thinking of whatsoever which is haunting my mind. I have my own problems to deal with too. Adding any burden on my shoulders right now will cause a severe breakdown. If this is a life test from God, then I doubt that I will excel in it.

Perhaps I need more time to think about what's right and what's not. But time doesn't always heal: it just breathes and swallows memories like the seasons change - sending showers; beating flowers into the mud.

"Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go." -Anonymous

Awesome PM8

Yearbook was the recent topic in the class after our AS finals. Well, we were given 2 pages in the yearbook and we had to come out with ideas, designs and the final product itself in 2 weeks. Thanks to Hui Ning, who designed and edited all the pictures into 2 pages, we managed to hand in something which we all like. =)

But of course, there was a photography session, to take our class picture which will then be included in the yearbook as PM8, Class of 2010. And do look carefully in the picture below to look for the presence of MALES in a class of FEMALES. Haha.

Good companions in college! :)

I sayang PM8 *wink*

Aren't you clear enough that we are all in a Pre-Medicine class? =P

( Rachel, Mr. Peter, Li Jin, Shirley & I )

According to Ning, they are named as "6 weirdos & 1 normal".

But Wai Han told me the other way round.

Can any of you enlighten me that which is the right one? Haha.

( Heng, Vivian, Cindy, Ning, Wen Qi, Sin Yee & Wai Han )

The rare species in PM8. ( Michael, Zhi Yong & Tsung Wai )

Is it lucky or unlucky to be in a class of girls? I'm asking guys in this case. =P

Orang ini fooling around. Haha.

Jocelyn & Fiona

Mr. Peter & Shirley :P

Sam's signature 8TV Quickie Pose!

( Sam Ong, Sam Tham, Jennie, Melissa, Steph & Su Ann )

Mr. Peter with his one eyebrow raised.

Another shot of them :P

Of course, we didn't forget about Ms. Chong!

Surprise to see her in the lab and with her lab coat? Haha!

PM8 with Mr. Peter & Ms. Chong! Loves.

And our oh-so-lovely mentor, Ms. Cindy!

This was taken on the day after the lab day. :P

You wouldn't want to know how many shots we've taken.

The Psychology students and their lecturer.

Mr. Raja & PM8!

That was the very first class picture with Mr. Raja. Haha.

And a candid shot =)

Take a look at the whiteboard! =P

And now, are you ready to see our class page? I personally like it very much, I believe you will like it too. Again, thanks Hui Ning for everything. :D

P.S: Also, check this out! Log on to http://www.procreo.jp/labo//silhouette.swf and see which way do you see the dancer turning to, clockwise, anti-clockwise or both ways? I can only see anti-clockwise, but none of my classmates can actually see it like I do. I believe somebody out there will actually see her turning anti-clockwise, right? =)

No, It's Not The End

Holidays officially started yesterday afternoon, when the clock struck 12 p.m. Although we have tons of homework and revisions to do throughout the holidays, but we had to enjoy the first few hours of holidays. Hence, we ( Mel, Steph, Sam, Tio & I ) headed to the nearest mall, Sunway Pyramid, for a movie and also to have our brunch.

Choosing a place to dine in is a nightmare. Surprisingly, we didn't face any problem settling down yesterday. We went to a newly opened restaurant, Pepper Lunch, which is located one floor below the cinema. The food was served in lesser than 5 minutes, and we had the chance to cook our own food. It would be great to have something like this once in a while if you don't know what else to eat.

Tio & Melissa, paying for their food.

Chicken Pepper Rice or something, I don't remember.

We had to mix them quickly with different sauces of our choice before it's overcooked.

I dunno whether I'm not talented in cooking or what, mine wasn't as tempting as the rest.

Steph, Mel, Tio & Yours truly =)

I've got no idea what should I put as caption. Haha.

Headed out to take a picture with the gigantic Stich.

Tio was trying to do Stitch's signature pose which actually made Sam laughed.

I want a huge Mickey. Is it possible that Sunway management sees this? =P

It was time for our movie then. We randomly picked "The Couples Retreat" because "Princess and The Frog" will only be released on the next Thursday. The movie wasn't really funny for me, and it's pretty obscene at the same time. It is not advisable to pay RM 9 for a movie like this, unless you don't have any choices left.

Honeymoon was our next stop because Mel was craving for her Mango Loh. She went "Mango Loh, Mango Loh, Mango Loh" for numerous times, as if it's a tongue twister. Haha. Killed some time there with our desserts until Tio complained that he was late for his frisbee practice. And ladies, don't forget our next food trip on Thursday. ;D

I was playing with the modes, and found this Sunset mode.

Looks pretty, isn't it? =)

( Tio & Steph )

Mel, Yours truly & Sam on the couch

Guys, don't forget to vote for Sam as the next 8TV Quickie host.

Simply click here for more information. =)

I can assure you that she's different. Go check it out!

Stephanie

Melissa & I

A spaghetti-like thingy in Mel's Mango Loh.

Happy Holidays!

I Didn't Miss It!

Title says it all, does it not? Haha. I complained that I won't be able to catch a glimpse of S.H.E in a post before this because I couldn't make it to 1 Utama on that particular day. But, I still met them on the next day, in Sunway Pyramid. Although the event lasted for half an hour and I couldn't get their autograph, but it was good enough for me already.

Headed there with Tio ( The actual plan was to accompany him to get his new pair of spectacles. ) The event started at 12 p.m, which was a good timing because I only reached there around that time. The event was scheduled to start around 11 a.m though. Pretty lucky. =P

The launching of Osim new product.

I took more or less 70 photos in half an hour.

And I doubt that you guys wanna see a page full of S.H.E photos.

So I only uploaded a few of the best ones. =)

And they will have their next concert in Malaysia around Feb '10. =P

P.S: Credits to Tio because he informed me just in time to meet them. Thanks! =)

H.O.L.I.D.A.Y.S

No more sleepless nights from today onwards, which I assume that it's good. I'm done with my finals, as well as my semester tests. It wasn't easy to cram more facts in my brain when it is actually full with AS knowledge which I don't think that I'll need them any longer. Also, I didn't do any revision on A2 topics for almost 2 months already. So, you can picture how difficult it was to catch up with A2 syllabus just to take the tests.

Pure Math 3 is one of the nightmares.

Spent days to understand everything and did practices.

Of course, I had expectations by then.

But guess what happened? Spot the MR in the picture above?

I misread the question!

I did integration when the question actually asked for differentiation.

Honestly, I think there's something wrong with my eyes. Sigh.

Yes, 12 marks gone! Heart shattered into pieces.

As for Chemistry test, we were allowed to bring notes.

But, only a sheet of paper is allowed! ( 1 page, not both back and front )

And guess what we did?

Crammed everything in one page!

Deceived by the picture before this, weren't you? Haha.

I should have taken a picture of Melissa's notes.

The size of her words is half of mine. Impressive! =P

Tomorrow is the last day of college for Year 2009. Honestly, everything happened just in a blink of eyes. I couldn't believe that I'll be taking my A2 finals in another 6 months. Time really flies. ( I know I have been repeating this for God-knows-how-many-times, but I can't help it. ) And of course, one of the best things which happened in Year 2009 is being a PM8-er! College mates are great and I'll definitely miss them during the holidays. =)

Another Random Post

Yes, that's very true. But, it doesn't apply to everyone of us. Some of you do know which path to take, and don't have any doubts. Sadly, I am not one of the lucky ones. I have been asking myself the same old question lately, but I simply can't think of an easy way out. I am pretty sure that I won't be able to ignore this anymore. Time flies without mercy, how long more do I have before I make up my mind?

But this morning, I realised that I don't have a choice. And that's me.

P.S: Happy birthday to my sister!

I'm Lost

I still don't know how to respond to what's happening right now. Maybe I should say, I still can't believe what I've read. Things just don't go in a way which you want them to be. There are too many thoughts in my mind right now, but I simply can't put them into proper words. I'm lost, and I don't know whether I have the courage to bring myself back, back to normal. It would be great if God can tell me what should I do now.

Sooner or later, I gotta sort this out. Because what's happening right now, is nothing close to what I want. But I doubt that I'll be able to do this. I need some time, to calm down and also to think about it seriously.

My heart aches, to see this happens twice.

Maybe It's Not

I don't know whether you've heard about it before, but many people told me about this. According to them, to be the youngest child in the family is the best as compared to the rest. I've got no idea why do they think so, because the statement isn't really true in my opinion.

Yes, I'm the youngest child. Maybe you will think that youngest one is usually the baby in the family and is protected for most of the time. Fine, I agree with this. It will be in this way for most of the time. Everything is well taken care of and no matter how old are you, they will still take you as a kid who never grows up. It's great to rely on the family at home when you already gotta face a number of challenges out there.

But, do you understand the pain of the youngest child? The age gap between my siblings and I is pretty big. So, I didn't get to spend much time with them before they turned legal. Because by then, their circle of friends gets wider and slowly they move on with their life. The television was my best friend back then, as I was always staying at home alone during those days.

Honestly, I forget when was the last time I had dinner with the family, as in the whole family. There's always somebody who is missing, we hardly have the chance to dine together. It hurts, to see how the dining table shrinks from days to days. And the last time we went for a vacation, all 5 of us, I was only 6 years old. I really hope to travel somewhere, even if it's in Malaysia, or only for a few days, as long as we're all there.

I'm still waiting for this day to come.