It's been a year.

Honestly, I never thought I would return to this space I have online. My faithful old pal who has always been there for me, although I have been neglecting its presence. There is an advantage too, nobody bothers reading an abandoned blog. So my thoughts are safe with my buddy here.

My mind is a mess, a total mess.

It's like the pain eats me alive from inside. Fortunately, nobody will ever notice it. How did I end up like this? I wonder, but that question is unanswered. I stayed up all night looking for answers and solutions, but nothing worked out. Things are falling apart, worse is there is nothing I can do about it.