不被信任的爱

都怪自己当初撒了那个谎。

后悔也于是无补了吧。

P.S: 不知何时开始，我的眼泪也已在你眼里变的廉价。

迷茫

友情；它真是一个深奥的一门学问。

但我永远都不可能成功的修这一科。

才发现，离开了深爱的他和家人，我什么都不是。

31.12.2012

Looking back at 2012, it's a year which has brought me challenges, sweetness, joy and of course heartbreaks and sufferings. I'm thankful for all these, for they have made me stronger and better. Another year unfolds, and as the new year comes, let us all look forward to more of what we had. Hope for the best. Yes, not everything will turn out good. But, bad things make the good good. What is happiness without sadness being the one that identifies the other? Let us all love and cherish the people around us, grab new opportunities and try new things. Enjoy the last day of 2012 and enjoy the year to come. Leave the heartaches behind and bring with us the lessons and memories. 

Best wishes and happy new year! ♥

Going The Distance

When you feel alone, just look at the spaces between your fingers, remember that in those spaces you can see my fingers locked with yours forever.

Only 4 more days left before I fly to UK for my studies. He just finished his 3 months of attachment in a company, and we have been spending most of our time together. This doesn't make me feel any better, to be frank. I am already missing everything back at home, how am I going to survive the coming academic year?

This is bad. Should really stop feeling this way.

P.S: Picture was taken during our recent trip to Kuantan. We were trying so hard to capture this picture with a timer and a tripod. A photographer who was coincidentally capturing the sunrise there that day offered to help us out. Love this heaps!

14 Days

14 days, exactly 2 weeks left now.

The studies abroad blues are haunting me now. Probably one of the reasons why am I regularly getting bad dreams and nightmares these days. The thought of being separated with Him and my family simply makes me feel sad, and there is nothing I can do about it but to endure.

During one of our daily Skype session few days ago, we were planning dinner and all on Malaysia Independence Day, which falls on 31st of August every year. We were all happy and chatty, but suddenly He asked, "What is the date for the Friday after 31st of August?" I knew the answer so well, but I had no courage to answer the question. It was silence which followed after that.

That day is approaching very quickly, time has no mercy.

The only thing I can do, is to wait for the day to return to Malaysia after one academic year. Please make this coming academic year a smooth-sailing one, God. Gonna work hard to be returning to my home country earlier. God bless me.

Signing off,
Yours truly.

Recipe For Love

Daily Quote

It's been a year.

Honestly, I never thought I would return to this space I have online. My faithful old pal who has always been there for me, although I have been neglecting its presence. There is an advantage too, nobody bothers reading an abandoned blog. So my thoughts are safe with my buddy here.

My mind is a mess, a total mess.

It's like the pain eats me alive from inside. Fortunately, nobody will ever notice it. How did I end up like this? I wonder, but that question is unanswered. I stayed up all night looking for answers and solutions, but nothing worked out. Things are falling apart, worse is there is nothing I can do about it.

Quote

Trip to Hong Kong, September 2011

I've always avoided fights. I make jokes instead. I tell people what they want to hear in order to avoid a confrontation. I pretend to want things I don't want, and I pretend not to want things I do want. No one gets hurt. Except me. The lines are so crossed and blurred at this point that I don't know what I want. I just know I want it to be easy.

Conquered!

:D

Lucky Star

Participated in an online-contest for the first time, never thought of winning at all. It was a big surprise indeed. Never expected this, especially when I spotted my name on a status update during my usual checking-Facebook-out time. All I could do was stare at the result in stunned disbelief. To have a little treat for the both of us in this tight schedule was like a present.

Thanks to Le Meridien Kuala Lumpur for this scrumptious buffet dinner! :)

Work Days

Something I've been doing lately, minus all the fun I've had in between.

P.S: I REALLY need my voice back!

My Company

Sometimes I wonder if I should remove this tiny space I have in the blogosphere. Yes, I have been constantly asking myself this question, like for at least 2 years? Ever since I graduated from high school, I haven't been really updating or managing my blog. Probably because of the laziness in me, and also the tight schedule I have. When it comes to weekends or holidays, all I want to do is to sleep, eat, catch up with friends and also drama series. Blogging has not come across my mind, for most of the time. Where's my passion for blogging, you may ask. I'm sure it's still in me, but it's now only a tiny fraction of my life. 'Til then bloggie, I shall see you again in the near future.

P.S: I still visit my blog, hopping to see a new post pops out of nowhere although I am sure that it won't happen. Ahh, miracles are still a myth for now. :)

Grow Together

His 20th. :)

The more we grow and learn, the closer we get. ♥