不知所措

实在没有头绪如何摆平这一切。。
即使怎么努力挽回也没用了。。
结果往往不如我所想的。。
怀念哪无所不谈的我们。。
怀念哪为了琐事而笑的我们。。
怀念哪以前的一切一切。。
但现在已于事无补。。
这份友谊就这样随风而去。。
即使不舍，也没用了。。
连眼泪也不听使唤了。。
一路以来只有我天真地以为能改变这一切。。
但我错了。。
这两天想了许多许多。。
应该装傻下去吗？？
就让这一切不了了之吗？？
我真得甘心吗？？
仍然没得到我满意的答案。。
但这时，我终于明白你以前所说的。。
我们彼此都改变了。。

It came TRUE

Basically I didn't go to school yesterday because I particularly went on Thursday. So, I just planned to take one day off in that week. School is seriously too boring. But I'm lucky enough to get sick yesterday. My god, it happened to be an off day for me and yet I'm sicked. What theory is this?? =[

I nearly slept for the whole day yesterday and didn't do any other things. 1 day, which means 24 hours wasted just like this. I'm pretty unlucky also as my dad realised something fishy going on when he called me. I tried to sound as if I'm normal n of course healthy and yet he found out that I'm not feeling well. Well, me ended up in the clinic then. Anti-medicine for my life but I still have to eat it. Just kill me will be better. T.T

I suddenly remembered that I told Salwa on Thursday that I'll be sicked on the next day. And this came true. If what I've said will come true, I seriously hope the God picks the right one and not this. Suffered for the whole day yesterday.

By the way, gonna upload the pictures which we took on last Sunday with ex Surians. Lazy to blog for the last few days and so I decided to upload those pictures in this entry. Nothing much to crap already. Gotta hop to my bed soon as I'm still having serious headache.

绝望

很清楚明白这世上根本没有两全其美。。
为什么偏偏要逼自己走上这绝路？？
明明知道这条路没有出口，却选择了它。。
难道是我错了吗？？
三岔路，三个出口。。
应该站在原地不动吗？？
任何一步都将制造一连串的悲伤。。
我的存在，没有任何价值。。
反而是场灾难。。

Genting again

So, I went to Genting Highlands with my relatives on Sunday. Seriously, there were many people there until I could hardly breath. I hate it when everybody had to walk with difficulties as if everybody were packed like sardin.

But I didn't do anything special there too. Basically, I shopped, sang and watched a movie there only. Nothing different from what I'm going to do if I'm in a shopping mall in KL. However, 'The Bourne Ultimatum' appeared to be nice. We just randomly picked this movie. Although it made me blurr at the first place, but I like the actions and everything. Peeps, get yourself into the cinema for this show. I think it will be nice for you all too. =P

P.S : Pictures are uploaded below.

*She's adorable*

*Me & Ling*

*Me & Rou*

*The Coffe Bean*

*Sing,sing,sing*

*3 of us(Blurr)*

*Padini Authentics top*

*Seed top*

*Little Cupid(Girl)*

*Little Cupid(Boy)*

Hit The Mall

*Roxy handbag*

*Another pair of earrings*

*Roxy flip flops*

Well, I went to Sunway Pyramid 2, which is the new block of it and Pavilion today. Of course, Pavilion is much better la. Love the design and everything there. Everything is well-organised. But Sunway Pyramid 2 isn't bad too. At least there are more shops and it is obviously a better place to shop already.

Seriously, I couldn't go home empty handed, isn't it? So I bought few stuffs again today. I'm wondering how much I spent in these few days. Have to be thrifty, right? But I just can't resist those stuffs.

Happy moments just don't last long I suppose. Everything is totally opposite once I reached home. I had a bad stomachache which started yesterday night and even the worst one happened. It happened last Saturday, and again tonight. Wondering why doesn't it just end everything? Or perhaps this is the symptom. Who knows?

Mickey & Minnie Fever

*Mickey and Minnie*

*Sister's*

*Mine*

*Aren't they lovely?*

It's never enough

Well, today supposed not to be a holiday. But it's after exam for god's sake. So, I think basically none of the Joy-ians will appear anywhere in the school compound. If they did, they were the hardworking ones in Joy though.

Early in the morning, I tried hard to persuade my sister to shop with me in Mid Valley. She refused at the first place, due to her exams. But after persuading for half an hour, she agreed. =P Seriously, hard work pays off.

But honestly, I hate shopping malls when there's no parking. It's weekday, but yet Mid Valley was packed with humans. We took about 50 minutes just to park the car. The management must look into this matter seriously. Don't they understand that time and tide waits for no man?

The Gardens is gorgeous but it is not fully opened yet. Some of the shops are still under renovation. But I don't think that it is a nice place to shop although it is well designed. However, I bought some stuffs also. Seriously, I'm totally in love with a top. But too bad, it is running out of S-size. =[

*I like this most*

*I bought the same one as I've lost the previous one*

*Like circles,huh?*

*Nice hair clip =P*

*I'm in no mood for love XD*

*A picture of me*

迷失了

昨晚，那么坚决的下定注意。。
说好了要坚强的走这段路。。
为什么在短短的24小时里又再次的崩溃呢？？
难道我就这么的软弱吗？？
没有了别人的支持与爱护，就无法面对眼前的难题了。。
我这辈子，就注定要过这样的生活吗？？
今天所承受的一切，是我的报应吧。。
没有任何头绪今后的我将如何摆平这一切。。
连我的身体都不听我的使唤了。。
一整天都惹麻烦。。
先是那不争气的肚子和背部。。
再来就是脚。。
也许体力不支而毙命都将发生。。

忘不了

这是我第一次伤心难过那么久吧。。
想要熬过这一切并不容易。。
而愚蠢的我，竟把我身边的朋友都气坏了。。
一切也挽回不了，就让他随风而去吧。。
也许少了我的存在，他们的世界会更美丽，更精彩。。
接下来的一切，也必须面对。。
我不懂我该怎么办。。
但是，也是该独立，该成长了。。
这道路，仍然需要走下去。。
即使少了朋友的关怀。。