I'm Lost

What's the problem with me lately? A question I wanted to ask badly and to get the answer. Am I the one who caused all these? I know I'm the one that should be blamed though. It's all my fault and I admit it. I should be treated in this way and should not be angry or sad because this is sort of punishment that I have to bear with isn't it?

But sometimes, I really hope things never been like this. Past is what we can't change no matter how hard we try. Once it happened, it became a history. I don't have the ability to travel back to the past. I really want to know how to settle this thing off. Cinderella has a fairy godmother, but I just need a listener. A person to listen to me, that's it.

Recently, I'm in love with two songs, and both of them are contrast. The first song is 'This I Promise You' by N'Sync. This song is really nice and the lyrics is beautifully written as well. And for me, this song reminds me lots of things. Promises are what I hate all these time, but I actually believe in it because of some certain incident.

However, the other song is 'One Sweet Day' by Mariah Carey featuring Boyz II Men. The lyrics is totally different because it describes a down atmosphere. "Sorry I never told you all I wanted to say" is one part of the lyrics which I like the most. I admit that I can't express myself really well and always causes misunderstands. I'm trying to change, but anybody willing to offer me some help?

How I wish when I open my eyes the next day, everything is over and it's just a dream of mine after all. Is this possible?

19.3.2008 =P

Okay, so it's time for me to update my blog again. It looks dull nowadays because I'm kind of busy with my stuffs and also kind of lazy to post any entry. But I didn't give up my blog though. My blogging mood will be back soon. =]

So, what am I going to blog on today? Of course about my birthday. I know that I'm very perasan, just bear with it for this particular moment. My birthday fell on Wednesday this year. It turned out to be the day for Seniors' Section photography session and Fire Drill. That's why we didn't really study much that day.

First of all, we took the Prefects' photo first. The photographer was really a funny guy. He kept repeating that the photo have to last for 100 years and hence he wanted it to be perfect. We were laughing behind because it was hilarious. Miss Elvinna then asked me how old am I and how old will I be 100 years later. XD

We studied for few periods before Lunch and basically after Lunch, we were having lots of fun in the Hall of Character. It was the venue for the photography session. This was the first year we didn't have to suffer from the ultraviolet sun rays to take the photos but taking it in an air-conditioned room.

We took our class photos quickly but I'm sure that the informal one won't look good because he just snapped continuously without informing. Really funny, but I knew that he was rushing because there were lots more to go. Stephanie brought her camera along and we took lots of pictures together.

When we walked to our class, Chun Yew was there and started to make up a funny excuse to prevent me from entering the class. He said that there was somebody bathing at the apartment opposite of our school. We talked on this a lot because I didn't manage to see anybody and Jiunn Huah appeared suddenly and asked me to enter the class.

The moment I stepped in, I saw candle lights ( Not candlelight dinner okay? ). Then they started to sing birthday songs. I was pretty shocked because I didn't know that they bought cake. And I looked awkwardly at all of them. But still thanks for everything you all did. I appreciate it and love it. Glad to be classmates with all of you for these 2 years. <3

Once the cake was cut into pieces, we had this small little war and Jaren started it up first. Of course I revenged. But too bad, the majority won. All of them versus me, it was reasonable that I lost okay? I washed my face for 10 or 11 times and yet still smell like a cake!! They kept saying that I was pretty smelly that time. =P

Basically, I enjoyed that time. I really forgot everything, everything that revolving in my mind the whole day. I had a memorable birthday because of you guys. Much love!!

*Still having fun*

*The real ones*

*And here comes the informal*

*Kar Lin and I gone crazy? XD*

*5 Joy for Year 2008*

*Okay, we were totally not ready!!*

*And look at Kar Lin's reaction again!!*

*Just us*

*And now with our class teachers*

*Seriously, you guys don't know how to pose at all*

*And we forced them to do so*

*We joined them later on*

*And started to pose. =P*

*The guys didn't change at all*

*But yet girls were having fun XD*

*And we pulled Mr Bio in*

*From left: Faith, Me and Jaren*

*I love this photo to the max =]*

*Hearts for WHO?*

*Here comes the 2nd take*

*All sorts of shoes*

*And with the Friendship Star*

*Failed to get a perfect one without flash*

*Us with BM teachers*

*Spread your hands*

*Us with Pn Maimunah =]*

*Four shots with Ms Fam*

*2nd*

*3rd*

*And the last one*

*Applying FORCE on me*

*Me and J on the way back to class*

*Their strategy to prevent me from entering*

*And this was what I saw when I came in*

*Didn't know what to do*

*They were singing all four versions of birthday songs*

*Smiling awkwardly*

*And turning around =P*

*Made my wish*

*Will it come true?*

*And the cake which fell once =]*

*Majlis Perasmian? XD*

*Me, after the attacks by many of them with the little flower <3*

P.S: View Stephanie's blog for more details.( Min Yee taught me this =P)

Election

I believe everybody knows that on the 8th of March, which was on the Saturday was a big day for every Malaysian. People squeezed themselves into a packed area just to be a responsible citizen and to vote for their respective ones.


Actually this election was none of my business at all. I doesn't mean that I don't care about it or anything, I mean I'm not qualify to vote yet. So instead, it was a nice day for me to shop because KL, the city area had lesser people compared to normal weekends. Okay, I admit I love to shop. But this is how most of the girls like to spend their time and I'm definitely one of them. ( Well, I'm not a shopaholic, just love to shop. =P )


March is one of my favourite month. Why? Firstly, there is this 1 week holidays which I can escape from school and have a total relaxing day. Secondly, I gonna hit the mall again with my family and have some lovely window shopping, but of course I'll still buy something. And lastly, it's my birthday month. =]


We knew the results on that night itself on most media but I didn't feel that something BAD gonna happen yet. And I got the WORST news from my mummy.


I'm officially in a prison now from Sunday night to Tuesday. I can't even attend extra classes or tuition classes because my parents worry about me as there is a really big number of malays in my school and tuition area. And my mummy started to give me a really long speech on the election and how it's related to me. So here I am this holiday ( I mean Monday and Tuesday ), stuck at home.


P.S: Anybody know when Sophie Kinsella's new book will release the normal paperback type?

I'm Back =]

Okay, it's been ages since I've updated my blog. Sorry for that because I've been really busy lately and also I was lazy to post any entry. But now I'M BACK. I will blog about my trip to China in the next post but not now because of the tons of photos to upload and I'm seriously too lazy to do so now.


So guess what am I going to blog now? No point guessing as I'm revealing it. Just keep reading ( I know this is lame ). But first of all I wanted to show my gratitude to my family for supporting me all this time.


I knew that my mother wouldn't say those things and I was right. Just somebody wanted to change the whole story to influence my decision. And although I always argue with my sister, but I know that she is too worry about me but she expressed it in a different way like others. Not to forget my brother too. He called from United Kingdom just to talk to me when I didn't reply his messages in MSN. And my father was in China that time so no advice from him. <3


But now everything is fixed already. Nothing I can do to change it and so I just accept it. I'm trying my best to overcome this and never let it beat my down. With everybody's support, I believe I can make it though.


Somehow, I just wonder why people like to make others suffer so that they can have easier life. It's my life, so I'm the one who should make the proper decision isn't it? What's the point of influencing me to get rid of those? But nevermind, I don't put the blame on anybody. I'm just expressing my feelings. Hope others don't get the same thing from them again. God bless. But seriously I'm disappointed with this. I didn't know that others were actually right until that day. Now I believe!!