Adios 2010

It's the last day of the year, again. I guess this is my 4th post, trying to put in every single thing I had been through for the past year, every year. I know I know, it's never easy to summarize what had happened for the last 364 days, excluding today of course, because I don't know what's there for me today. But there's one thing for sure, every single up and down in Year 2010 made me stronger, tougher, braver, and it changed me, for better I would say.

This year, I waved goodbye to my college mates. Real awesome people, I assure you they are. We do not meet each other everyday, not like how it was when we were still in college. And our unique method to decide which restaurant to dine in every lunch break? I wonder if any of you still use it. Really, I miss all of you. 1.5 years with you guys is definitely too short.

Then, I entered university. Another phase of my life began. To be honest, it was really awkward when lectures just started. I'm not really good in mixing with people whom I'm not close with. So it took some time for me to blend in with the rest. But I'm glad to have met this bunch of crazy friends I have now. Seriously, can you believe it? We have already known each other for 3 months now, more like a month for me. Oh wells, we have another 3.5 years together. I foresee more crazy and impromptu plans.

Of course, not to mention some conflicts I'm facing right now. Pretty obvious, ain't it? But I guess it's a challenge for me, yet again. Nah, shouldn't rant about it now. It's a summary of the year, shouldn't put too much emo-ness in it.

And, I finally made up my mind this year. Now, I'm truly glad that I did. I've always been hiding my true feelings, kept them bottled up, because me myself didn't know how to deal with them too. It's only until then I've decided to face them and accept them, because I can't bear to lose you. The one who has always been there with me through the thick and thin, the one who has never given up on me, the one who has accepted me for who I am. March is never going to be a miserable month for me now, right? Thank you.

All in all, 2010 has given me a lot of exams, mainly tested me on LIFE. This four alphabets may be normal if they are not arranged this way, but when they are, it is one damn thing which you can never figure out or define. You can only learn, learn and learn from mistakes and try to be better next time. Now, we should all get ready to accept more challenges in 2011. Life has never promised that it will be easy, but it definitely worths it, especially when we sit under the stars one day, and just think about how has life treated us in the past years.

Let's all have a great end to Year 2010!

P.S: Ignore the grammatical errors if there is any. Typed this in a hurry. :)

Corruption!

If we can't trust the police, whom can we trust? Sigh.

Waiting For One

When you're a kid, it's simple. Christmas is magic. It's a time of miracles, when reindeer can fly and frosty never melts. Then you get older. Somehow, things change. The magic begins to fade. Until something happens that reminds you, at Christmas time... miracles can still be found. Sometimes in the most unexpected places. - The Wonder Years

For some reasons, I find it so true. To be honest, I was once a naive kid also. When I was 7 or 8 years old, I took out the most beautiful sock I had in my wardrobe and actually hanged it on my door knob. ( Yes, I live in a tropical country, we don't have a fireplace in our house. ) Pretty obvious, I believed in the existence of the Santa Claus. And the first thing I do on the 25th December morning is to check if there was anything in the sock. To my surprise, there was something in there, either toys or sweets. I guess I was really happy at that time, couldn't really recall it now.

But as I grew older, I didn't spend time doing such thing anymore. I started to realise that the presence of Santa Claus, his sleigh and of course the cute reindeer was simply a fantasy, a seed of hope the grown ups planted in us when we were still young. But whenever Christmas is around the corner, like now, I feel happy. The feeling is simply indescribable. Although I do not celebrate it, it is still more of like a joyful day for me.

So, how is your Christmas? :)

P.S: I'm heading out in a bit to STUDY. I know, darn sad.

Updates: Alrights, I would have to rephrase. I had a GREAT day. :P

Truth

It's times like these when you realize who your real friends are. You learn that being fake doesn't cut it, holding back doesn't make it easier, and sometimes being best friends isn't worth it.

Answers

What if we were made for each other

Born to become best friends and lovers

I want to stay right here

In this moment with you

Over and over and over again

-What If, Colbie Caillat

Move On

It's okay to cry, it's okay to be sad about it. It's okay to miss things like how they were before, and it's okay to wish you did something differently. But never blame yourself for how things turned out. Never tell yourself you can't do better, and never tell yourself this is end of the road. Fate has a time and place for all of us and nothing you can do or say will change that. Sure, it's okay to fall, but it's never okay to stay down.

P.S: Something I've been constantly reminding myself about.

Argh

If there is an award for the biggest failure on Earth, I'll probably win it.

Goodnight. :)

Full Stop

People come and go, just like seasons. Whether you like it or not, you have to accept it. It's one of the harsh truths of life, one which you would never want to believe that it's true. Of course, there's no way we could runaway from it. You can only pray hard that it would never happen on you.

And unfortunately, I'm not one of the lucky ones. Yes, that's life.

To be frank, it's not the first time people have wandered away from me. But I can still feel the pain, I guess I'm not immune to it yet. Every single time I fall, I need to spend a lot of time to pick up the bits and pieces up again, to believe that it would never happen again. Apparently, life has proven me wrong. Maybe I should rephrase it, life has never promised me anything. It's just me, too foolish to have trusted everything will be alright at the first place.

I'm tired and sick of this.

Happily Ever After

AWESOME! ♥Please watch it if you haven't already.

That One Minute

Only one person in a thousand knows the trick of really living in the present. Most of us spend 59 minutes of an hour living in the past, with regret for lost joy or shame for things badly done, or in a future which we either long for or dread. There is only one minute in which you're alive. But, the only way to live is by accepting each minute as an unrepeatable minute, which is exactly what it is.

P.S: I still feel disgusted by somebody/something. Issh.

Maybe Yes

Girls are superheroes. Who else could bleed for a week or a month and not die?

Found this quote somewhere, and it actually made me laughed for a second. And if girls are superheroes, I wish to have another ability, the ability to read minds. Alright, it's impossible, better quit dreaming now. :)

Also, spotted this picture earlier. Omgeee, the cupcakes are so pretty! I don't think I'll eat them if somebody give me those cupcakes, I will probably stare at them for hours. Gosh, mouth-watering little things. ( Hui Ling, if you see this, please figure out how to bake them! Weeeee. )

For Her

I guess this is the most recent picture taken with my sister in my computer.

The computer can't read my external hard disk, what's wrong lah? Hmm. :(

Anyways, guess I should not go off topic. Today's my sister's BIG day. No no, she's not officially getting married today. It's her birthday! She's still in Hong Kong, enjoying her trip right now, so I guess I'll just dedicate this post to her.

Happy birthday, Sister Chen! A year older right now, but I wouldn't reveal your actual age in the blogosphere, no worries. Have a fun-filled trip and I shall see you on this coming Sunday, with souvenirs of course. :)

P.S: No, my blogging mojo is not back yet. Don't put high hopes on me. :)

Alert

The first beam of light, credits to Jill.

Sometimes, you just want to put other people's happiness before yours because you love them, because they deserve it. But the thing is, what are the odds that they will actually understand you? They will probably get mad at you, for keeping everything to yourself, or they will probably not realise what you've done for them. So, tell me, is it better to keep it bottled up or to spill it out, no matter what the circumstances are?

I'm confused, I guess I need a break from everything.

Note to self: *slaps self* 2 weeks until the mock exam, please start studying NOW!

Blue Moon

Everybody is beautiful, in their own way.

People around me have been asking me to update my blog, it's literally dead now. Honestly, I have the urge to blog sometimes. Joyful events, random outings, superb intense lab sessions, heavy workload, gilaaaaa thoughts I have in mind and etc. I wanna spill them all out, but I'm way too lazy or tired. Have you readers given up on me yet?

Of course, I have thought about closing this blog. But I guess it has too many memories which I would like to keep, until the end of time. I simply can't bring myself to click on the button to delete my blog. I do drop by once in awhile, wanting to blog but always fail to do so in the end. I'll just end up reading previous posts, seeing how much I've changed and learnt in these few years. Pretty scary actually, to realise that if a single step I've taken or a single decision I've made is different, I wouldn't be who I am today, and probably wouldn't be where am I now.

And I've come to this conclusion that I'll never close this blog. I'll still blog occasionally, probably not blogging about any event anymore ( depends on my mood atually ), but to blog when I feel like it, pouring all my thoughts in this tiny little space I have here. I don't care if I'm exposing my inner self in the blogosphere, because this is the place where I can be myself, my true self.

Have a good weekends ahead, people. :)

Broken Pieces

Words and hearts are the two things that should be handled with care cause if words are spoken and hearts are broken, they are the hardest things to repair.

While

All the best love stories have one thing in common: they need to go against all odds to get there.

P.S: I seriously don't know when it's the next time I'll type in here again.

Secure

Imagine a future moment in your life where all your dreams come true.

You know, it's the greatest moment of your life and you get to experience it with one person. Who's standing next to you?

Subtle

This goes out to all the people who have been broken, but have been strong enough to let go. For the people who have hurt so badly that they felt like they would never love again, but kept their head up. For those who feel like going back to their old lover would put all the pieces back where they belong and everything would fit, but accept the cold hard truth instead. For the people that learn from their mistakes and never stop moving forward, even when they take two steps back. For the people that wish loneliness wasn't a part of them, but put up with it anyhow. For the people that are okay with taking up all of the room in the bed, even if sometimes it feels a little empty. For the people who wake up in the morning with no missed calls, but smile anyway. For the people that periodically miss the past, but are so much more excited for the future. For the people that have so much tired to their past relationship, but break those chains to start fresh. For the people that want to look back so badly, but focus on the road ahead. For the people that pick up the phone so tempted to call, but keep their dignity in tact instead. For the people that never wanted to let go, but had to. For the people that still believe in love even after all of the hurt their heart has endured. For all the people that gave up not because they were weak, but because most time it's better just to let go. We'll get our happy ending someday.

Just A Term

After the funeral, my grandfather hugged me. And I’ll never forget what he said. He told me that he had just lost the love of his life, the most important thing in the world to him, and that it hurt like hell. He said he probably wouldn't ever be the same. But then he looked me straight in the eyes. He said that his time with her was something he would never trade, that it was the only thing worth living for. He told me to find that. He told me that once I had that, nothing else would be as important. And he said that once I found it, to cherish it and never let it go.

Swing

I’ve learned that good-byes will always hurt; pictures will never replace having been there; memories, good or bad, will bring tears; and words can never replace feelings.

Escapade

It's been a year, can you believe it? Now, tell me. Why does time pass so fast? Our first day trip to Genting Highland is still crystal clear in my mind. Oh wells, how can I not remember? Shirley and I were late for the bus, the grumpy bus uncle, the cyclone ride, the bumper cars ride with us all imitating certain animal sounds and many MORE. These little things are what we still talk about, until today. (You can read the previous Genting trip post here.)

Alright, let's get started. I would assume that you have already read the prequel, which is the neoprints post. So I would skip the usual naming session. This time, nobody was late. We were there before the bus uncle asked us to get into the bus. I see a little improvement there. Teehee.

The early birds

(Yours truly, Mel, Steph, Sam Tham & Tsung Wai)

People I heart. :)

Spot Shirley and Sam Ong on the right hand corner.

The journey up the hill was more or less 45 minutes.

We then took the gondola to the peak from the skyway station.

The girls :)

This picture is pretty, isn't it?

We took picture at the exact same spot, with the exact backdrop.

Perhaps it's true, people change, things change, but memories never will.

Of course, how can we start a day of fun without a proper breakfast? Randomly entered a cafe which we happened to pass by while we were on the way to the theme park. A very healthy meal indeed, toasted bread with half-boiled eggs. Dayums. :) Speaking about breakfast, I miss Subway and McDonald's already. We used to have them for breakfast when we were in Taylor's. Oh, not to forget my egg mayonnaise sandwich and nasi lemak from the cafeteria. Reminiscence, hmm.

Can finally spot Ben in the picture. :)

I think Mel was real happy in here, teehee.

Remember this? We have an exact same one from the year before.

Nothing better to do, HAHA.

Epic uSqueez! Feels so good, HAHAHA!

Stop telephonin' Me-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e.

Still on the way to the theme park. :P

A must-have shot.

If I'm not wrong, we were there during the school holidays. Yes, you can imagine the crowd and the long queue now. Unlike the previous trip, we were among those few who had holidays at that period. So, lesser rides for us but more pictures for you. Oh, and if you wonder why lesser rides, because we were simply too lazy too queue up for anything. Whoops.

A complete group picture. :)

And our first ride of the day?

None other than the Merry-go-round.

We waited for 5 minutes or so just to get a picture with the clown.

Guess what, the first thing Sam said was he had a bad breath. HAHA!

And we couldn't stop laughing after that. :P

Let's drive in KL like that, if it's possible of course.

Another groupie picture. Don't you love them? :)

Spot the little kid?

He was there before we took the picture and we had to ask him to excuse us for awhile.

Later, when others wanted to take pictures, he hid behind. Gosh, so cute. Me love! :D

Oh, but he's a little grumpy. Perhaps because it was early in the morning? I've no idea.

See, another must-have shot in Genting!

She had been touching mostly everybody's ass and yet nobody realised it.

Shirley dear, you must have expertise in this field already. Haven't you? :P

Oh, vainness. :)

Imagine how long was the queue.

We had so much time for all these, teehee!

Check this out! HAHAHA!

Yes, we were still waiting. :P

One of my favourite shots, pretty.

Another view. :)

Theme: Superman Returns. Which is better?

And this was taken when we were queuing up for Corkscrew.

Others had this serious talk about I-forgot-already. Oops.

The Warriors!

Because they were the ones who went for THIS.

And guess what we did while waiting? :P

Found a place to rest and had some snacks.

Random shots.

Spread some love.

Like Oh-My-Gawd!

Took more pictures of the warriors while they were queuing up.

Is it me or Ben and Sam really do look alike in this picture? HAHA.

And of course, camwhoring as well.

It's finally their turn!

And Ben who had to join somebody else.

Have enough of us yet? :P

Extremely adorable.

Went into the Chocolate Wonderland to kacau a little.

See, we really got nothing better to do. HAHA.

Oh my, funniest picture of the day!

All the models-to-be. HAHA.

A decent picture. :)

I miss you already, sigh!

Wonder why we took a picture there?

Figure it out, the answer is pretty obvious for me. :P

On the way back to the skyway station.

Waving bye to Genting Highland.

Epic, he could fall asleep just like that. :P

And we continue to have fun before the bus left for KL.

Gang Mat Rempit, the hoodies.

I don't know if that was our last day trip to Genting Highland together. But there's one thing for sure, I miss you guys. Now that we part into different ways, we won't have the chance to spend time that often together. Let's just pray that our paths will intertwine in the future, so that we can enjoy each other's company again. :)