Adios 2010

It's the last day of the year, again. I guess this is my 4th post, trying to put in every single thing I had been through for the past year, every year. I know I know, it's never easy to summarize what had happened for the last 364 days, excluding today of course, because I don't know what's there for me today. But there's one thing for sure, every single up and down in Year 2010 made me stronger, tougher, braver, and it changed me, for better I would say.

This year, I waved goodbye to my college mates. Real awesome people, I assure you they are. We do not meet each other everyday, not like how it was when we were still in college. And our unique method to decide which restaurant to dine in every lunch break? I wonder if any of you still use it. Really, I miss all of you. 1.5 years with you guys is definitely too short.

Then, I entered university. Another phase of my life began. To be honest, it was really awkward when lectures just started. I'm not really good in mixing with people whom I'm not close with. So it took some time for me to blend in with the rest. But I'm glad to have met this bunch of crazy friends I have now. Seriously, can you believe it? We have already known each other for 3 months now, more like a month for me. Oh wells, we have another 3.5 years together. I foresee more crazy and impromptu plans.

Of course, not to mention some conflicts I'm facing right now. Pretty obvious, ain't it? But I guess it's a challenge for me, yet again. Nah, shouldn't rant about it now. It's a summary of the year, shouldn't put too much emo-ness in it.

And, I finally made up my mind this year. Now, I'm truly glad that I did. I've always been hiding my true feelings, kept them bottled up, because me myself didn't know how to deal with them too. It's only until then I've decided to face them and accept them, because I can't bear to lose you. The one who has always been there with me through the thick and thin, the one who has never given up on me, the one who has accepted me for who I am. March is never going to be a miserable month for me now, right? Thank you.

All in all, 2010 has given me a lot of exams, mainly tested me on LIFE. This four alphabets may be normal if they are not arranged this way, but when they are, it is one damn thing which you can never figure out or define. You can only learn, learn and learn from mistakes and try to be better next time. Now, we should all get ready to accept more challenges in 2011. Life has never promised that it will be easy, but it definitely worths it, especially when we sit under the stars one day, and just think about how has life treated us in the past years.

Let's all have a great end to Year 2010!

P.S: Ignore the grammatical errors if there is any. Typed this in a hurry. :)

Corruption!

If we can't trust the police, whom can we trust? Sigh.

Waiting For One

When you're a kid, it's simple. Christmas is magic. It's a time of miracles, when reindeer can fly and frosty never melts. Then you get older. Somehow, things change. The magic begins to fade. Until something happens that reminds you, at Christmas time... miracles can still be found. Sometimes in the most unexpected places. - The Wonder Years

For some reasons, I find it so true. To be honest, I was once a naive kid also. When I was 7 or 8 years old, I took out the most beautiful sock I had in my wardrobe and actually hanged it on my door knob. ( Yes, I live in a tropical country, we don't have a fireplace in our house. ) Pretty obvious, I believed in the existence of the Santa Claus. And the first thing I do on the 25th December morning is to check if there was anything in the sock. To my surprise, there was something in there, either toys or sweets. I guess I was really happy at that time, couldn't really recall it now.

But as I grew older, I didn't spend time doing such thing anymore. I started to realise that the presence of Santa Claus, his sleigh and of course the cute reindeer was simply a fantasy, a seed of hope the grown ups planted in us when we were still young. But whenever Christmas is around the corner, like now, I feel happy. The feeling is simply indescribable. Although I do not celebrate it, it is still more of like a joyful day for me.

So, how is your Christmas? :)

P.S: I'm heading out in a bit to STUDY. I know, darn sad.

Updates: Alrights, I would have to rephrase. I had a GREAT day. :P

Truth

It's times like these when you realize who your real friends are. You learn that being fake doesn't cut it, holding back doesn't make it easier, and sometimes being best friends isn't worth it.

Answers

What if we were made for each other

Born to become best friends and lovers

I want to stay right here

In this moment with you

Over and over and over again

-What If, Colbie Caillat

Move On

It's okay to cry, it's okay to be sad about it. It's okay to miss things like how they were before, and it's okay to wish you did something differently. But never blame yourself for how things turned out. Never tell yourself you can't do better, and never tell yourself this is end of the road. Fate has a time and place for all of us and nothing you can do or say will change that. Sure, it's okay to fall, but it's never okay to stay down.

P.S: Something I've been constantly reminding myself about.

Argh

If there is an award for the biggest failure on Earth, I'll probably win it.

Goodnight. :)

Full Stop

People come and go, just like seasons. Whether you like it or not, you have to accept it. It's one of the harsh truths of life, one which you would never want to believe that it's true. Of course, there's no way we could runaway from it. You can only pray hard that it would never happen on you.

And unfortunately, I'm not one of the lucky ones. Yes, that's life.

To be frank, it's not the first time people have wandered away from me. But I can still feel the pain, I guess I'm not immune to it yet. Every single time I fall, I need to spend a lot of time to pick up the bits and pieces up again, to believe that it would never happen again. Apparently, life has proven me wrong. Maybe I should rephrase it, life has never promised me anything. It's just me, too foolish to have trusted everything will be alright at the first place.

I'm tired and sick of this.

Happily Ever After

AWESOME! ♥Please watch it if you haven't already.

That One Minute

Only one person in a thousand knows the trick of really living in the present. Most of us spend 59 minutes of an hour living in the past, with regret for lost joy or shame for things badly done, or in a future which we either long for or dread. There is only one minute in which you're alive. But, the only way to live is by accepting each minute as an unrepeatable minute, which is exactly what it is.

P.S: I still feel disgusted by somebody/something. Issh.

Maybe Yes

Girls are superheroes. Who else could bleed for a week or a month and not die?

Found this quote somewhere, and it actually made me laughed for a second. And if girls are superheroes, I wish to have another ability, the ability to read minds. Alright, it's impossible, better quit dreaming now. :)

Also, spotted this picture earlier. Omgeee, the cupcakes are so pretty! I don't think I'll eat them if somebody give me those cupcakes, I will probably stare at them for hours. Gosh, mouth-watering little things. ( Hui Ling, if you see this, please figure out how to bake them! Weeeee. )