Dream

Picture was taken at Marina Bay, Singapore.

This little girl here, whom I know nothing about, actually approached me with a big smile plastered on her face. Little did I know then, she was trying to talk to me and wanted to show me the beautiful Barbie printed clothes. Innocent-looking and happy, she wasn't afraid to tell me what was on her mind. Only kids will be able to do that I guess. Life may be easier for children, simpler and lesser things to be worried about. Even if they fall down or feel unhappy, they will just cry to express their feelings. But, when was the last time you did that without locking yourself in a room?

Oh wells, life still goes on. We definitely cannot be a kid again, since time machine is still a fantasy for now. But we can choose to live a better life, a happier one. Past is worth reminiscing, but the present and future are what matter most now. :)

Back At One

A teenager once asked an old man, "In a relationship, which is more important: to be loved or to love?" Then he replied, "Which is more important to a bird? The left wing or the right?"

Wise old man, he definitely is. :)

Blank

A quarter to 2 a.m, here I am.

For the first time in I-don't-know-how-many-years, I actually switched off my mobile phone and turned off my laptop. At this hour of the day, I'm supposed to be sleeping, after 4 sleepless nights. I'm physically tired, but again, I'm mentally active. It's like, all my unwanted thoughts have decided to pay me a visit, and they have never wanted to leave my mind alone after that.

Perhaps, I have always been overestimating myself. Before this, I thought I could make things right, I could be better, and I could please you. But it only took one second, only ONE to bring me down again. I didn't know that I would be able to ruin everything: happiness;trust;confidence. Yes, this is me. Full of flaws, and I guess nobody can look beyond my imperfections. Imagine walking into Tesco, seeing discounted canned food on the rack, will you buy them? I guess not.

Gosh. Typing everything out doesn't help, at all. I should stop here. Pouring all my thoughts out only makes things worse for now. I should stay disconnected from everything, until I feel better.

Sorry, for being selfish. I have chosen to avoid the problem, again.

Lately

As we grow older, it becomes difficult to just believe.

It's not that we don't want to, but too much has happened and we can't.

Time passes by so fast and it's Tuesday already. Just one more day until my next paper, another 40 hours to be exact. Looking at the lecture notes, seeing how much I've to remember is NOT fun. Worse still, my mind is fully occupied by all the fun and freedom I will have after this last paper. See, how am I supposed to study now? Tell me.

Another 8 lectures to revise, which I think I've already forgotten and deleted them from my mind after my last reading last week. So, I will have to start all over again. Argh. Yes, do tell me where can I get an external hard disk for my brain, IF there's any.

STUDY, MeeKuan! STUDY!

P.S: But I'm off to bed now, goodnight world. :)

Here We Are

On the verge of breaking down, I am. Not knowing what to do and not knowing which is the best way out of this. Maybe I've been magnifying the problem, or maybe I've been ignorant of it. I don't know, I really don't. It's moment like this, quiet night, where everybody is in the dreamland but I'm awake. My mind is the loudest thing in my room, with thousands of thoughts running on my mind, slowing killing me from the inside. To be able to fall asleep quickly is a blessing, I'm not kidding you. These days, I would have to spend more or less 45 minutes to one hour to try to get into sleep, no matter how physically or mentally tired I am. Yes, pathetic, I know. But I'm holding on, no matter what is waiting for me ahead.

Sorry, I haven't been good enough.

P.S: In need of motivation to study, again. ARGH.

Stress-NYA

The exact sentence in my notes, no joke! D:

Omgosh, I too wish to remember them all. The thing is, I can understand nothing about it. No matter how many times I read it out loud to myself, I still cannot get the whole picture of the process. Okay, maybe I'm not that ambitious, so I will be really happy if I can understand like three quarters of it. Sadly, I don't. Biology has never been a good friend of mine. Remember how I usually say I'm Biology-intolerant? Yes, it's so true and I'm not kidding you. Argh.

Yes, that's how I study. I'm so going to gain like 5 kg after finals!

Alrights, I better get back to study. Wasted like 10 minutes to take and upload the pictures, just for the sake of blogging. Kononnya to de-stress myself. Let's see if it works.

It Matters

Hugging is healthy. It helps the immune system, cures depression, reduces stress, and induces sleep. It's invigorating, rejuvenating, and has no unpleasant side effects. It's nothing less than a miracle drug. Hugging is all natural. It's organic, naturally sweet, has no artificial ingredients, environmentally friendly, and is 1OO% wholesome. Hugging is the ideal gift, great for any occasion, fun to give and receive, shows you care, comes with its own wrapping paper, and of course, it's fully returnable.

What are you waiting for then? Give somebody a hug, everyday!