Perhaps

Sometimes, you just can’t tell anybody how you really feel. Not because you don’t know why, not because you don’t know your purpose, not because you can’t trust them; but because you can’t find the right words to make them understand. That's why words are simply useless at a point of time, you can never perfectly describe how you really feel.

Rants

It's really painful to say goodbye to someone who you don't want to let go. But it's even more painful to ask someone to stay if you can never make the relationship work out the way it should.

For some reasons, the same thing that has been bothering me for months manages to find its way back to my mind. I know, I'm supposed to be focusing on my final examinations and I shouldn't think about it for now. Trust me, it's easier said than done. No matter how hard I try, there's a point of time in a day where I can't get it out of my head. I can't stop wondering what have I done and what have gone wrong in between that have led to this tragic ending.

To be honest, I miss you. Every phone calls, arguments, silly jokes and catch-ups, I still smile whenever I think about them. But, am I the only one who treasure our friendship now? I don't know. Perhaps I will never know the answer to that question, since we are not talking anymore. It's funny how far we've drifted apart just in months. Oh wells, I guess that's life. One can never get the best of both worlds. Sigh.

P.S: It's a random update. I really need to spill my thoughts somewhere. :)

0901PM8!

Today is definitely one of the best days of my life.

All the laughter, gossips and memories, they're simply unforgettable.

PM8 rocks!

Leaving is definitely the hardest thing to do. I don't know how to say the final goodbye. In fact, I don't want this to come to its end. Thanks to PM8-ers, and I'm grateful to have you guys as college mates for the past 1 and a half year. Here's to the nights that turned into mornings and the friends that turned into family.

Hiatus!

I haven't been blogging for 1 month and now I don't know what to type in this tiny little box anymore. Blogger's block, I suppose. Of course, I'm still alive and I am attending classes, watching television, going for movies and shopping as usual. Everything's fine, no worries.

A2 finals are around the corner. In fact, only 2 weeks left before I enter the last battlefield for my A-Levels programme and I guess I'm not prepared at all. Yeah, you can now give me two tight slaps and might as well motivate me to study. I really need motivation, no joke.

So, I hereby announce that this blog is going on a hiatus, most probably until my A2 finals end. Well, actually the hiatus started a month ago, no? Anyways, you can expect to see updates on the month of June. I'll try to get myself to do something about my blog after that because I find that it is really boring to look at the same posts all the time also. To be honest, I don't even visit my blog anymore these days, so why should you, right? :P

Have a nice day people, will be back to blogosphere sooner than you think I am. :)

A Day After His Big Day

Yesterday was my Dad's birthday, which you all know by now.

So, guess whose birthday falls on the very next day?

( Hint: Whose blog are you reading right now? Pretty obvious, no? )

A Man I Can Never Lose

Time to stop all the emo posts, that's so not me. :P

And why am I typing in this tiny little box today, on 5 o'clock in the morning?

You wouldn't be able to figure it out, unless you know me very well. Haha.

So I shall disclose the answer now, right? Or do you want to make a smart guess?

Never mind, don't waste time thinking about it, you wouldn't succeed also.

Today is Daddy Chen's birthday! :D

Any man can be a father, but it takes somebody special to be a dad.

S.O.S

Honestly, I just want to watch as many TV series as I can everyday, curl up in my bed and sleep for days, if that's possible. The stress is building up everyday, and there is no way to relieve it. When I was young, I wasn't aware about the stress of growing up. But now, I do. I experience it everyday, and at a point of time, I really do hope that I have the courage to give up. Unfortunately, I don't have. I couldn't give up, or else guilt will be the next main problem I've got to deal with.

I need a break, I need to escape from all these mess. Stressed out, tired and confused, I've never felt like that before. This is the first time, and I hope it is the only one. Even chocolates couldn't plaster a smile on my face these days, what did all these mess turn me into? I don't know, no clue at all.

So here I am, don't know what to do or what to expect.

Endurance

To be honest, I've never liked the month of March. Every year, for some reasons, March is the month which a series of unpleasant things takes place. It is not that nothing good comes from this month, just that the bad ones really outnumbered them. Tears, nervous breakdowns, overwhelming stress and arguments, I'm positive that they happen in the month of March.

And there isn't any exception for this year. Pathetic, it really is.

Chocolate Cream Chip ♥

Why is Starbucks our favourite choice whenever we have to do assignments?

1. Of course, the drinks in there! How can one not love Chocolate Cream Chip Frappuccino? ( Heng will definitely roll her eyes if I ever ask her this. Haha. )
2. You get to sit on these comfortable couches that make your life easier when you are dealing with assignments for 2 hours or more.
3. Yes, and the laid-back atmosphere. Things seem to be less frustrating in there, for some reasons. Haha.

Work hard baby! :D

I don't know if you've noticed it or not, the free Wi-Fi service is not in the list.

And if you have already noticed, ever wonder why?

Because it takes God-knows-how-long to load a picture or even a page.

And for most of the time, it's because somebody is loading a short clip or show.

Tio was one of the culprits that day.

But it is the company that matters the most after all. ♥

One More

Cal-ebration, the first and maybe the last event I've attended throughout my entire A-Levels programme. Guess what, we weren't there because we wanted to go also. So, what's the main driving force behind this? Simple, we were there to accompany and support Sam, who was the host of the night.

I've learnt a lesson on that night also, no joke. I would never wear a blouse and a short pants to any events anymore, I'm serious. That was the first time I felt under-dressed in a casual event. 90% of the girls dressed up for that night, mainly in dresses and heels. They really took this event seriously, didn't they? Now, you tell me, how can I not feel under-dressed?

Besides, do remind me to have something light beforehand if I'm heading to any events after this. See, even when you arrive right on time for the event to start, for most of the time, it will be delayed. Food is served on the tables but you would feel bad to eat before it officially starts. And when it is time to eat, the queue is extraordinary long that you wouldn't feel like eating anymore. In the end, you starve. And that's exactly what happened on that night.

Anyway, I had fun that night. Okay, I better rephrase. Fun, as in I experienced something different. Before that, I've never seen how people of different classes mingle and mix around with one another, I've never seen how crazy the crowd can be when the results are revealed one by one and I've never seen how the crowd can dance or jump until they set the dance floor quaking. Tiring night, but loves it. :)

Yours truly, Samantha, Stephanie & Tsung Wai.

Another shot without flash to see that the glow sticks were actually glowing.

Man, I should get the green ones next time. Look really good in pictures. :P

This picture never fails to make me laugh. HAHA!

Don't ask me what were they doing, it's very obvious! :P

Family portrait? :D

And they walked me to my car. Thanks! :P

Tsung Wai wasn't in the picture though, no poles for him to pose. Haha.

Take It Easy

I've done all I could, I mean it.
I've not played any of their songs in my Ipod, for like 2 weeks.
I've tried my best not to listen to that particular radio station.
I've not visited their official fan site, for like 1 month.
I don't ask for too much, I just don't want to be reminded about it.

See, things just don't go the way you want them to.
No matter how hard I try, I can definitely listen to their songs.
The radio stations are being real mean to me these days.

Why do they play their songs like, once in every few hours?

As if it's not bad enough, I can listen to their songs in cafes and restaurants too.

Not only that, even my family asked if I'm going for it.

Gosh, so much for avoiding everything about it. Arrgghh!

P.S: I really need to be distracted on Saturday night.

P.P.S: Alright, enough of my rants. I hereby apologise for such a meaningless post. :)

BOLT!

If you've been following me on Twitter, you must have came across a tweet which I posted last night. No worries, I'm safe and sound and I didn't get into any kind of accidents. You must be thinking what does the "BANG" mean then, aren't you?

To cut the story short, my house was struck by the lightning. The lightning prevention system, or whatever you name it, obviously didn't work like how it did for the past 6 years. When I was about to unplug all the computers, modem and router, the lightning actually struck the modem right in front of me. Few centimetres away from me only, thank God. But the modem wasn't as lucky as I was, it exploded. Damages were caused, quite a number of them.

Anyways, I wouldn't want to elaborate on that. On a brighter note, I guess I would be able to see new computers or electronic devices soon. =P Oh, fellow technicians who are working in Telekom or Streamyx, if you guys happen to see this, please revive my internet connection ASAP. Thanks! :)

P.S: The odds of being struck by lightning are estimated at 1 in 700, 000 in a given year. ( Yes, I Google-ed. ) Should I ask my parents to buy lottery tickets tonight? Haha!

P.P.S: Now I think that I'm stupid. I searched online and found out that turning stuff off and unplugging stuff has also proved to do nothing except putting people in danger while they are doing it. I risked my LIFE for nothing!

Lou Sang '10

Today marks the end of Chinese New Year. Come to think of it, I have not posted anything about CNY in my blog yet. Whenever I go blog-hopping for the past two weeks, I can definitely see updates on CNY. I guess it's time for me to share my CNY as well. So, I shall start with the PM8's Lou Sang. :)

Guess what, I actually went through my archives to search for my previous post about our Lou Sang on January '09. It surprised me, to see how much we've changed in a year. The changes were only obvious when I compared the pictures in both entries. Sad to say, that was our second and last Lou Sang session. I doubt we'll have the next Lou Sang, as in involving the whole PM8. :(

I don't know why is it rotated, because it isn't like that in my folder.

I'm too lazy to upload again, so just bear with it dear readers. :P

Oh, and if you don't know why there was a cake on that day, continue reading!

Ms. Chong, I miss Thinking Skills classes!

Shouldn't have complained about it last time. :(

Part of the Yee Sang! :)

Unpacking the boxes to get our Yee Sang.

Still in progress, be patient people! :P

Cindy, Vivian & Wen Qi

For some reasons, I find this picture extraordinary cute!

Sexy Number 1. Hahaha!

Crackers, the best part about Yee Sang!

2 days ago, I had Yee Sang without the crackers.

They replaced them with Muruku. Bleh, NOT nice at all. :(

Jennie, Yours truly & Su Ann :)

Haha, I remember about this picture.

I asked them not to start first because I wanted to take a picture of the Yee Sang.

I took 2 pictures and wasn't satisfy with any, which means they cannot start yet.

Sam Ong then grabbed the camera and took this for me. Frustrated, I think. Haha.

Ms. Chong :)

I don't know how did he manage to do that! OMG!

Ning was the only one who posed for the camera, loves you. :P

Okay, now I love Heng too. :D

Sam, giving her thank you speech.

Why? Because we celebrated the January babies' birthdays also!

Now that explains the picture of the cake above. Haha.

Sam Tham & Geraldine, January babies too.

Mr. Peter :)

Happy Birthday! :)

PM8

No, I'm not naming everyone of us. Check my Facebook instead!

Levi's jeans are plain AWESOME.

Set it as your display picture, Sam! :P

What's Not

Always and forever,
Friends we were supposed to be.
More than anything in the world,
Was what you meant to me.

I want us to be normal again,
Like it was before,
When we were happy,
Instead of this bitterness.